Crashing.

I have found a way to get me out of here for just one year.

I would have to eliminate warm, fuzzy, human feelings and change into a state of humanoid - without feelings.

"We evolved a psychological system of emotional attachment" (from Manson) and this is exactly what I would have to work towards to eliminate it. For one year. Just one year.

Can anyone give me a crash course to be a complete "cold-hearted player" for 1 year?

I have to, or else I won't be able to reach to my end target and make the world warmer than ever in this freezing hell made by the people who loves money bloody damn too much more than the value of their own soul.

And even though I've gone through it, "it’s not changing any time soon" either.

Loved Mark Manson's article (although I wonder why there is a point in writing this and people so helpless because you're suppose to realise it itself, aka. control your body and not your body controlling your mind, like self-help books because it has to be done by the insides of you) and I've used it to this entire write-up. But really, he is my hero, 'nuff said  <

If you really want to spiral in with me, this is exactly how I feel - Tablo has probably viewed in different problem (heck cares where we graduate or not, I'm still with him) but the lyrics are all the same state of being emotionless and what's in the future without oxygen. This song has been a favorite of mine and now the lyrics even made more sense in the journey I'm now drowning. Human made, human consequences. Read, consume, lyrics, carefully.

Enough.

I have had enough of this dog-eat-dog, cat-eat-cat, adults-eat-babies world.

Celui qui voit tout en noir. Voir en noir.

Can someone pull me out of this; please keep me sane.

Five.

Spot Liberty? My mind is in this mess. How can you not be in the world today?

In just 5 weeks enrolled in school for my MA course, I have gotten all my curiosities and answers I needed about life, culture, and of Japan (as my specialist region lies in Asia, Japan was my ultimate source of curiosity and inspiration to why they are the 'finest' breeds of all society in Asia).

6 hours of class per week, the entire week dedication of borrowing and reading books from the reading week.

My life-deepening curiosities were (some related to how to rise cultural capital and creative industries):
1. How Japan rose and became 'The Asia' and be in par with the benchmark against Western 'culture'
2. Why is the world is as is today?
3. The vulnerability of the now generation and the bleak future for the next gen
4. Why is the no. 1 media and entertainment content has and always been America? Is it because its in English?

And, I found those and found much, much, much more to put me into insanity